Ether

So this is not my first blog. My first blog was a typical story of another patient communicating to her family and friends. And now, that I'm stronger, I've abandoned that version of me. I noticed recently that I abandoned communicating. I've receded into old habits, coping with life's challenges by evading and ignoring them. Along that path, I also evade and ignore those closest to me, and today, just past the stroke of midnight, I find myself in a familiar place, isolated and alone. There is no one I can blame for this. I've exhausted my human resources and I've removed myself from those closest to me. In an attempt to leave a painful episode behind, I shed my rattled skin and set off on a new adventure in a new place with no connections. In the process, I've left my closest confidants behind and have begun to let those relationships molt. If I'm not careful, they will disappear. And as they disappear, in moments like these, when I have to face the remnants of a person that I'm trying to forget, I am alone. So I'm writing out into the ether, to see if anyone hears my anonymous chirp, in the hopes that in sending out my voice, I'll be able to face my fears on my own.